Tuesday, 6 May 2014

Tuesday, 18 February 2014

Rambling again

We all have those thoughts sometimes. You know.. The suspicious, paranoid thoughts.. The is no real evidence that they are true but our minds are so sure of it!

Paranoia can be a few things, a sense of threat or fear about something. Fear that something bad will happen, or believing you'll lose something important to you! It could be something has happened like that in the past. Or a specific memory of something bad happening. All I know is, when I feel it. I hate it.

How do you stop those thoughts?

The more I think constantly about that one thought the worse it gets!

Talking to people about how I feel helps.. They normally tell me I'm being stupid. And 99% of the time I am! But it's getting worse. I just want to run away from my head!!! 

Being lied to doesn't help! And there are so many liars in this world! High up people and close friends! Once you been lied to and hurt by that one lie.. Everything gets questioned!

I write this blog so I can get away from being myself, so I can let things out to the people who I'm not around 24/7. So I can get things off my chest so I don't feel like a wreck!

I need to keep telling myself everything is ok.. I should worry less and believe the people I trust! Being hurt is my biggest fear! And that's what gets me paranoid!

Sunday, 5 January 2014


Sometimes when I'm bored ill sit with a drum pad and play a shit load of rudiments! Getting my practise in where ever I am

5-stroke rolls, with a paradiddle to switch to left hand lead slow to fast

Travis barker drum lick
5stroke roll- flam taps

Thursday, 26 December 2013

It's weird how one person can change your whole mood for the rest of the day!.. It started out ok at least..